noonelikesmecuzimugly:

How?

Dear Dad,
You told me I was being stupid,
When mum told you I was cutting myself,
You told me you were disappointed in me,
That you were ashamed of what I had become

Dear Dad,
You will never know,
What it feels like
to want to cut your skin open,
To see blood,
To feel something, anything

Dear Dad,
Your words replay in my head,
Day after day,
Night after night,
Over and over

Dear Dad,
Yes, the bruises may be gone,
But the memories will always remain,
The strength of your hands,
The look in your eyes,
Will never be forgotten

Dear Dad,
Nothing I can ever say or do,
Will ever make you feel
the way you made me feel

Dear Dad,
I hate you.

A.J (via hibernatinq)
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falling-fastly:

Never again will I trust.
Monsters aren’t under the bed. Monsters walk in the door, and they wear faces that are familiar. Flora Jessop. (via ten-fathoms-down)
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When I was 5 I learned the physical meaning of the word “hot” from touching the stove and burning my hand. I saw the word “hot” when I looked at my burn. Because of this I remember what “hot” is.

When I was 16 I learned the physical meaning of the word “love” from getting hit and yelled at. I saw the word “love” when I looked at my bruises and when I looked at his smile when he’d tell me he loves me. Because of this I remember what “love” is.

Me (via blackedout-whitegirl)
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recoveryaffirmations:

Submitted anonymously
Your abuse matters

findingmyrecovery:

Your abuse does not have to be what you consider to be the most severe kind to matter.

Your abuse did not have to last years to matter.

Your abuse does not have to be worse than anyone else’s you know to matter.

Your abuse did not have to be something you were completely helpless to prevent in…

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Why isn’t there a commandment to “honor thy children” or at least one to “not abuse thy children”? The notion that we must honor our parents causes many people to bury their real feelings and set aside their own needs in order to have a relationship with people they would otherwise not associate with. Parents, like anyone else, need to earn respect and honor, and honoring parents who are negative and abusive is not only impossible but extremely self-abusive. Perhaps, as with anything else, honoring our parents starts with honoring ourselves. For many adult children, honoring themselves means not having anything to do with one or both of their parents.

― Beverly EngelDivorcing a Parent

As someone that lived it. Truer words have never been spoken.

(via shrineart)
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saraaf1:

This is one of my drawings it’s about abuse I named it purple rain. 

The eyes being black and purple ( dark clouds - stormy night ) 

And the tears .. ( rain )
So … It’s purple rain